Wednesday, 19 March 2008

Mummy- 1941-2007

I still can't believe that my mother is not alive. I do feel orphaned even at 42. My father put this together- it's a compilation of her passport photos and it really hit a nerve with me as I remember her at every stage. And she always looked the same to me. She was still very young when she died at 66 but breast cancer took its toll. I miss her every day and think of all the things that we haven't told her this year. Grief is an extraordinary place.

25 comments:

Fixated said...

So sorry for your loss. May she rest in peace

Susan said...

Your post brought quick tears, the kind you get good at blinking back. It's been two years and I still am surprised that I cannot just pick up the phone and call my mother on the phone. But it does get easier.
Cheers to you. Your flowers are amazing!

DeeDee said...

Hi Sharon...What a beautiful mother you have and I say have, because she still lives on in your sweet heart with loving memories of her. Kind regards....Dee Dee

frida kahlo said...

Your mom is beautiful. I too lost my mom way too soon. She died of breast cancer when I was 27 and I miss her just as much today at the age of 42. There is a void left my the loss of one's mother that cannot be filled! All we can do is honor their memory and continue to make them proud! Thanks for sharing!

Anonymous said...

sorry to hear about your mom. I try to read about current events to keep my mind off things that are hard to think about..this is a good blog to keep busy...
http://greencollarjester.blogspot.com/

Nary said...

I'm sorry for your loss. I can relate. I lost someone I loved and I never got to tell him how much I loved him. He was my little brother.

My Chutney Garden said...

Hi Everyone,
Thank you so much for your kind words. I promise I won't get maudlin. This is my little tribute to my Mum at Easter. Things have just been falling into place in the right way over the last few days and I wonder? Could it be?
Everyone have a wonderful Easter filled with lovely flowers and eggs and everything else that reminds us of renewal,
Sharon

The Unstable Atom said...

Having visited your blog for the first time was expecting something on gardening and the picture itself made me choke up, quite nostalgic, she's beautiful.. I'd like to maintain "is" because she is always there with her loved ones. :) take care god bless you..

prakash murthy said...

Hi

I stumbled on this by luck, and this made it for a great start to the day!

Thanks for the post. Made me dwell on how everyone - irrespective of age, race, country - goes through the same pleasures and pains of love and loss.

Thx

Suze said...

What a lovely tribute to your mom. I was orphaned at the age of 23 and my mom died from a stroke. She was 67. It feels like it was just yesterday and I know it will always feel this way for the rest of my life. I miss her every second of everyday that I don't get to share my incredible life and children with her.

Suze

MARYYX said...

I'm sorry to read of your mother's death. She was a beautiful woman. My mother died the summer of 2006. About six months before she died, I began gardening. She loved hearing about the garden's progress and always asked me to bring pictures, though she was nearly blind, and could not see them. I would like to get a plaque, and dedicate my rose garden to her and my father. May God bless you and your family as you walk through this time of grief. Mary

Elaine Cooke said...

Mummy pictures. Sure can tell they are from the same family.

toontz said...

I lost my father 4 years ago to cancer. Still seems like yesterday. My mother said it best: “The hole in your heart will heal, but it will never go away.” It is a wonderful tribute to your mother, and made me think of my dad...thank you!

Masood Salem said...

She is beautiful! May her soul rest in peace.

Glad that I stumbled upon your blog. Will keep visiting.

Lydia said...

Hello, I'm so sorry for the loss your mother. I know how you feel when you stated that you feel like an orphan. I felt the same way when lost my mom. I was 39 years old when she died. I am now 42 and I'm still not over her death and still feel like an orphan. The photos of your mom are lovely. She was a very beautiful woman. I know she is still with you, even though she's not in the physical, because the unconditional love you both have for each other has no boundries.

Funkee Deeva said...

it's great that you keep all the pics...

sorry for your loss, stay strong.

nyxxie said...

May her soul rest in peace and may Allah help you keep strong.

Trudi said...

You have all the memories together with your Mummy they will never leave you. Such is life, big heartfelt sadness that you have lost your Mummy, but also big heartfelt happiness to have had a wonderful mother daughter relationship.

My Chutney Garden said...

Thank you everyone for your kind words. My thoughts go out to everyone who has lost a loved one.
I guess bereavement is the universal experience of being human. Thank you for visiting,
Sharon

lany. said...

That is a wonderful idea and definitely something to cherish. Your mother was a beautiful woman and you seem great, too. I'm sorry for you loss. Keep your head up. :] She was probably very proud of you.

Irish Eyes said...

Hi, my name is Sharon too.. I lost my mom 3 years ago, and I too feel orphaned at 40 years old. As a mother, I feel I have huge a void to fill as my children have no grandmother. It was so nice to see your flowers, I was just looking around and stumbled upon the pictures, then I saw your mom. What a wonderful gift your father gave you. Best wishes, sharon

FunnyLadki said...

beautiful beautiful beautiful.

Poppy & Mei said...

I am very sorry for your loss...Xxx

Snoozer said...

awsome photos!Really great!Sorry about your mom.We tend to take our parents for granted,feel they'll always be there for you.Never realise they are only human,they too become old,get sick and die.Its a terrible agony when you have to let them go.

May said...

congrats for having a collage of your mother's pp photos